My cat has to be put to sleep Today... at noon.

Of course, like everything else, there is a small chance that he'll survive. He had cancer once before, they removed it, but it had grown back. They removed it yet again, though had to leave a piece of the tumor in because it had grown into part of his artery that brought the blood back to his heart, and they were worried that if they removed it, he would die.

They filled him with liquid, forcing his kidneys to process the water and stuff. He has enough liquid that his body should process it within a few hours.. its been over 36 hours since he last urinated. His ureters probably arent connected to his bladder, so once everything is processed, it'll just spit out the toxic waste into his body and kill him that way.

May you find solace in the gentle arms of sleep
Despite the wolves outside your door
In time you will see them all as harmless
And their idle threats easy to ignore.

and if fate should choose to smite you
Stand your ground, never walk away.
Please don't ever let the world defeat you.
Dont get buried in its decay.

As you drift into the gauzy realms of dreams
May you take comfort in the thought that you are safe.
For it only takes a fraction of a second
for all this to change.

Return to me
When slumbers fog has lifted
Return to me.
Stronger than before

As you sink beneath the soothing streams of time
May you be thankful that you had another day
For there comes a time when each of us will enter
A sleep from which we will never wake.

Close your eyes now, if only for a moment
For its time you get some rest
The wolves are gone and nothing here can harm you
Let go of your fragile conciousness.



I love you Hamish. Those big sarcastic green eyes, always looking at something so critically, hardly anything met your approval, but you were always happy enough to give us a nice nuzzle to the face, even if you didnt like it.

I'm going to miss you waking me up at 6:30 for your food.. which had to be made specially every morning. A mixture of tuna, your wetfood, and just a pinch of your crunchy food. You wanted your tuna juice in a different bowl to make sure it didnt make your other food -too- wet.

I'm going to miss sitting in my leather chair in front of the TV, having you waddle over, jump onto the living room table and hold out your paw for us to shake it. We know you can do tricks, and you would often do them just to make us give you a treat. Once you got your treat, you'd climb next to me and rest your head in my lap and fall asleep, or watch TV with me.

I'm going to miss you meowing at the top of your lungs at my door until I woke up and crawled out of bed and let you in. There you would happily join me in bed and walk across me.. and lay down on my chest, then rub your face on my chin and then pull yourself up so you could lick my nose.

I'm going to miss those mornings where you pressed your nose aganist mine until i woke up, then gave me a look like i was crazy, when in the end you'd jump off my bed and run away as fast as you could, only to run back in and leap onto my bed yet again and get comfortable next to my side.

I'm going to miss those days where you wanted to join me in the shower, but once you were wet, you realized showers werent all what they were cracked up to be. I'm going to miss you being there to lick my legs and feet dry once i get out of the shower.

I'm going to miss the look on your face when you were ignored. Sitting there with your eyes narrowed with distaste at the fact that any of us could ignore such a superior being. But if we smiled at you, you'd jump up and run towards us and rub yourself on our legs.

Most of all, I'm going to miss you all together.
I'm going to miss you Hamish.
Always yours,
-Nikki.